hey, how ya doing?

Things have gotten worse. I changed
my mind about suic
suicide bu
but may likely change it again.
Freak accident and right hand is seriously damaged. Can no longer work or pay rent.

Hey David, how are you today? Just thinking about you and checking in.

I just got a chance to respond because I've been in the hospital having surgeries on my right hand for the past few weeks. I had a freak accident and suffered major nerve damage. Im home now after racking up over $300,000 in medical bills. Medicare will cover most of it, but I can't work anymore and am unable to pay rent this month.
It's been frustrating doing everything with only my left hand and the doctor said it will never fully recover. So things continue to go downhill. It's like the gods are trying to convince me to go ahead and end my life.
I have a few last ditch plans to avoid being homeless, but it will take a miracle for either to suceed. I'd try Go Fund Me, but i don't have much presence on social media.

I see that beautiful picture of Lulu. She trusts you and will spend the rest of her life waiting for you to come back.

Also, interesting that you asked “what” spiritual consequences there are…not IF there are any.

These two things are your own answer David.

♾️

Those are very incisive points. I'm still haunted by the Richard Gere movie about the dog who waited for him to return home.
I had a gf years ago who suffered a near death incident. She said dying was an orgasmic experience and it lasted about 10 minutes before she was revived. She was relieved and joyous to be released from her body to return to a pure energy state where she was a part of universal energy and knowledge. When she realized she had to return to her body she fought it.
Things are getting worse every day. More bad news that keeps me in a constant state of anxiety and depression. I'm getting a test kit for the pills i have just in case. If I use them I need to be sure they're good quality. With my luck I'd do a half ass job and end up a vegetable. i know i sound nuts, but im just not willing to stay in a corrupt world where i have nothing to look forward to and have to steal every day to survive.

To bluntly answer your question-

I’ve heard the spiritual consequences are that of a limbo/hell like experience. Not as punishment but the choice the “being” chose to disconnect from source and believing. It’s dark, literally, and everyone just walks around angry and repeating their anger. You can leave this place if you want out by simply asking but the frustration, anger, and hopelessness that brought them there is what continues to keep them there. Plus you have to relive this life all over again.

I would highly advise not to do this.

On a more gentle note- I feel this feeling is growing and there’s many that haven’t shared that they have the same feelings. Maybe touching on spirituality will start your fire again. You can call down spirit to talk to them if you want, help give you some direction.

Let me know what I can do to help.

Thanks for the reply and I appreciate the offer. Unfortunately, things have gotten so bad I'm afraid it's beyond repair. I lost the use of my right hand and can't work anymore. I feel hopeless and frustrated due to the hardship of being unable to do the simplest tasks. Even typing on my phone takes forever now. If you have advice about setting up a GoFundMe id appreciate it.

I have fought this same battle time and time again and do more than not. I lost my BFF...my dog 3 months ago and I was so ready to die....i had no purpose to live anymore. Still struggle with that. I will never get over losing her so that battle of living will go on inside me for the rest of my life. For some damn reason, I havent pulled the trigger. People want to accuse you of being selfish if you kill yourself. I dont think that way at all. The misery is what you dont want to deal with and they shouldnt either. NOW with that said...that doesnt mean pull the trigger..it just means..try to find a different place in your mind...and TRY HARD to find some sort of purpose. I have not found mine yet but I am looking. I even gave up talking to God. He took my best friend. WHY? The only thing that got me up everyday. Now I feel like I am just going through the motions of life...until.......cont in comments..

im sorry you lost you friend. i think about how I'll feel when Lulu passes and it frightens me. i depend on her unconditional love so much. And she always seems tuned into my thoughts. How many humans can you say that about? I know it's hard but think of him still with you and try to find another pup to spend time with.
Things just keep getting worse for me. I'm addicted to opiods because I need knee replacement surgery from arthritis and I have severe arthritis in both shoulders. Excruciating pain all day every day. On top of that, ive lost all but 3 of my top teeth due to bad dentists. so eating is a miserable experience too. Tonight i went to the casino to get my mind off things. i hut a light post in a parking lot and dented the bumper. I drive a rental car and but it's overdue by a month, so basically a stolen car. i it a letter saying to return it but now i have damage to fix. Then i lost over $1000 tonight. This might be a message from somewhere to give up. Im almost 70.

im glad you wrote and hope you feel stronger soon. Take care.

I love you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Love you, too.

Thank you! ❤️

Either you need our help... or you are inserted... if you actually need our help..we can turn this around tonight... if you troll...we can turn this around overnight.... My frens here are very empathic.. My Frens here are intuitive.... they love to help... my few frens here..are Q ppl... say what you mean

Since you replied to my last post things have gone downhill and gotten much worse. I'm now handicapped, can no longer work, and about to be homeless. I'm definitely not inserted and very desperate. I appreciate your offer you made in your reply. This is my donation page. Can you please help share it? I don't have social media besides AU.

Thanks!
https://www.givesendgo.com...

David that is seriously not God's plan for you hun.
Things can get bad, when we have pain in our lives, losses, and health issues sometimes it seems there is very little hope, but there is always a gimmer of hope.
Talk to God, ask Him for help. This is not the time to give up, we are so close now to help for so many and that includes you too.
None of the things nor anyone else can make you happy, you must find it within yourself to see that all you can do this. Right now is living and we are all blessed to be here.

I know if I can claw my way out of the darkness of buring 3 children, you can over come anything in your way too. You just have to want to.
btw:
We have had this conversation before, exactly this, I know you can make it. Tm is a brand new day.
We love you.

Love you, too. AU has the best frens.

Nana, David posted a givesendgo this morning, can you share this please? https://www.givesendgo.com...

We are almost there--seriously close and then the world changes for the better. In taking your life, tou may become bound to earth which is a terrible predicament. If you pass on this way, you are still in incredible pain. At least here, you have all of us. Mediums have often encountered lost souls who have commited suicide. You wont find a nice support group around them. In other words, it would make things even worse for you. Within 2 months the whoe world will change. Just hang on--we need you

Thank you for the encouragement! My situation has gotten worse but I'm still trying to find a way to hang on.

I just came out of a period of depression and it was rough. My point is this feeling won’t last forever. Look at it as a test you are being put thru to get your soul/spirit for the blessings

God prepares us by guiding us to do soul work. Hang in there. Pause when agitated. You aren’t alone. You will feel happy again. Suicide is final your current circumstances are not.