im sorry you lost you friend. i think about how I'll feel when Lulu passes and it frightens me. i depend on her unconditional love so much. And she always seems tuned into my thoughts. How many humans can you say that about? I know it's hard but think of him still with you and try to find another pup to spend time with.
Things just keep getting worse for me. I'm addicted to opiods because I need knee replacement surgery from arthritis and I have severe arthritis in both shoulders. Excruciating pain all day every day. On top of that, ive lost all but 3 of my top teeth due to bad dentists. so eating is a miserable experience too. Tonight i went to the casino to get my mind off things. i hut a light post in a parking lot and dented the bumper. I drive a rental car and but it's overdue by a month, so basically a stolen car. i it a letter saying to return it but now i have damage to fix. Then i lost over $1000 tonight. This might be a message from somewhere to give up. Im almost 70.

David as for your dog i get it completely. Me and my girl was so close. We were connected. I knew what she was thinking all the time. I have never ever loved an animal like i loved her. She was my true love on 4 legs. It has devastated me horribly. And yep..against me really wanting to get another dog,...my daughter talked me into another dog. I kept saying..i dont want another dog. well due to the dogs situation, it was just good to help her. SO for 2 weeks i have a wild young crazy..never lived in a house dog...and she is a ton of work. no manners, all over the place..chewing and digging...SCREAM but shes growing on me. by the time she is old..i will be over your age as well. she might be one of if not the last dog i get. i do have two other dogs and both are seniors and both are not doing so well. One may have cancer. I take her back for a sonogram to see if they can find whats going on with her. shes not breathing well and had a fainting spell. ---> continued

Reading about how much pain you suffer makes me upset because doctors are supposed to find the cause of the pain and then remedy it.
That was the way it was supposed to have been, but they don't do what they're supposed to do.
For me, I refuse to give up because my thinking is that I will be damned if I give them that satisfaction.
I hope I can live up to this, because, yeah, the pain gets to be unbearable at times.
Still, may they be damned instead of me.
We must survive. May God please help us!
Show us your tenderloving kindness.