I have been trying to heal from trauma my whole life I just didn’t know it.
After having one hope after another dashed with dates and times and actions and arrests that maybe werent public it seems like a very familiar rollercoaster ride of what will happen next and finding myself on high alert- a very familiar place.,

Lately, and this is very new and very weird to me, I feel like I am almost floating above it all. it takes a lot to startle me. i might not even check in here all day where as before i was checking here and wego and telegram and rumble desperate not to miss a thing. Does anyone else feel this way??

ita not that I can see whats coming its just that I know somehow its gonna be alright. I dont have to be caught up because I know weve already won. I didnt feel that before, I may have believed that but I did not feel it. Now as I see more and more things come to fruition maybe its made it easier to truly belive. Maybe it is just the peace that passes understanding.

I stepped away from my own hyper-vigilance and stopped consenting to anything fearful. I agree-I'm mostly here to learn and support family. And prayer helps tremendously. This is going to take time and patience-so many are waiting for instant relief and it has to be a slow drip. The dates and impatience, lack of gratitude for everything that's already taken place are a black pill I walked away from-permanently.

Martin hun you ARE what YOU perceive you are.
You have already realized that this is just an avatar and your consciousness is what you really are, so you are ahead of most ppl already.

You CAN BE what ever you want to perceive.
But sometimes massive change takes a minute.
You are ONLY as damaged as you perceive.
Try to see more of what we see, maybe.

Nana doesn't see a damaged Martin, only a battle hardened Martin that already came thr to the other side of it.

If you are in a position to acknowledge the possible damage then you are already on the right side of it or you would not know the difference.

This is what makes AU so awesome, people like you. Never really been good knowing myself until I found AU. A giver yes, but not to myself. I don't really have the words to express my heart felt gratitude... such personal growth equates to freedom. Wish you could see my smile.
May God continue to Bless You! 🙏 TY!
Angels Here (until the end) -Z. 😇💗

I’ve had quite a number of GMOTFPs myself Martin. I’m guessing so have many other anons. I marvel and thank God for giving us this platform for support, prayers and love for one another. Healing is a unique process for each of us but we all come out of this together…we are one. Much love Martin❤️🙏

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