Wrote this reflection on Christianity in a private chat, so it's rather more raw and candid that what I usually put out. I don't (yet) take the name, but am seeing the attraction, and notice a lot of people who do talk the talk but don't walk the walk. Christianity to me is a badass creed, and the longer I am engaged in this spiritual warfare, the greater the value I find in paying attention to those who fought in previous battles.
At the end of this war, the only reward worth having is peace. In the outside that means an end to the mind control, tax harvesting, false flags, genocides, resource theft, and so on. In the inside world it means knowing I acted with honour, courage, and perseverance.
There's no cash windfall, gong on my chest, or lasting notoriety that will give me what I want. If there's ever going to be self-reproach, let it be "could I have fought harder?" rather than "why didn't I fight?". I have to know I served the divine with all I had to offer.
Central Falls schools bring back mask mandate as COVID cases rise again
The Providence Journal
“Central Falls students will once again be wearing masks when they return to classes Monday.
Central Falls Schools Superintendent Stephanie Downey Toledo has reinstated a districtwide mask mandate, effective Monday, "for the health and safety of our students and team," Toledo said in an email Saturday.”
This really resonates with me Martin, I always appreciate your raw honesty and perspective.
Those of us who have been at it for years are exhausted and at least for me personally I am fending off daily draining attacks from sleeping family that are just nasty, hurtful, brutal and getting worse. They have been caught up in the world spinning out of control and can't see anything but doom, gloom, and misery and it seems their goal to attack others with their negativity and try to bring me down with them. I try anf try but they refuse to see anything, especially if it's positive. It's like floating in the ocean, tired from treading water and rhey are pulling my legs trying to pull me under. 😔 I refuse to let them, it's a constant battle. The personal cost of this war is high indeed. I find myself having to unplug and retreat to meditation and silence just to recenter. I don't think it's selfish to try and protect your soul so that you can persevere. 🙏🏼
Let’s say a dozen people have written to me asking me to get on TS. That’s a dozen messages to reply to. They want me to pour into their cup, but where’s the reciprocity? How will this cover my car repair bill? How will it serve my own mental health? How will dedicating myself to a new social media endeavour take energy from other essential projects?
It has been quite a lesson seeing how others relate to fame and celebrity, and how they see the public persona, but don’t see the (breathing and bleeding) human behind it.
Each of us has a personality profile with strengths — and their shadow. I am an "achiever maximiser"... so let's design computer CPUs before I have left high school, get an Ivy League math degree, climb wild Scottish mountains in winter, trek across the Himalaya, push the boundaries of computer science, "explore the mind" (don't ask), unpick this crazy Q stuff... etc.
It's not a boast, just my lived reality, and the dark side is I find it really hard to unwind and relax. Everything in the world is fodder for my autist to analyse, or my achiever to maximise, even the idiotic things I have done. Sitting still enough to read a book is a huge challenge for me. Stilling still and not doing anything? OMG HELP THIS IS KILLING ME.
I am sure you will recognise your own towering gifts vs the misshapen madness from their shadow. We keep acting it out, without pausing to ask if these automatic ways of being really serve us. Crazy times can make the personal madness part harder to manage.
My thought for the day... you have to do what is right for YOU in this war, and be "appropriately selfish" at times (as well as nobly selfless). Beware generic exhortations to fight that might not apply to YOUR situation.
So yes, we may be in the build up to the "big push" to take terrain and wake up normies. But for me personally, I have been at it in public nonstop for 4+ years, dealt with all kinds of crazy stuff offstage, and the signs of burnout are getting too hard to ignore.
An ex-military friend just called me and said you need to take the arrows out of your back before you run around getting hit by more arrows. So people are messaging and mailing me asking why I'm not rushing to VPN my way into Truth Social, and it's because I am finite, and basic everyday things now need my attention and energy.
We are also being drained by the dying energy-harvesting processes of the old world, which have not yet collapsed. Don't succumb to self-harm right before our final victory.
Durham has to happen while TRUMP is not in the Whitehouse. I realize that now. Otherwise it would be just viewed as a Political attack. This makes me feel more peaceful about what is going on.
But the Election fraud must also be proven as a part of taking them down.
Election Fraud MUST be proven by September 2022 because after that all fo the records can be destroyed.
Children’s risk of Death increases between 8100% and 30,200% following Covid-19 Vaccination compared to Unvaccinated Children according to official ONS data
Also it’s the 141st day today.
Rogue operators are here.
Failed to shut down site.
This will only get worse.
Archive and coordinate.
Crumbs dropped will soon paint the full picture.
The picture will open the eyes of the world.
We can't do it without you.
God bless you all.