I understand, brother. And those these words have little impact, I hooe they give you even a glimmer of hope. My grams always told me, if the best card you have in your hand is a 2 of clubs, then you take that card & run with it. Bluff your ass off until you believe its the winning card! God puts the right people in our path, at the right time, to say the right thing. You've got this. You might feel alone & abandoned, but really, you have more family around you than you can count. We just arent your blood. But we love you & we've all been there, we all know how desolate a feeling it truly is. Being an independent (to the point of folly) individual, myself, reaching out is the hardest part. You were strong enough to make that move. I pray that God remove the obstacles in your path, that He bring to you healing & comfort. I also pray He softens your family's hearts so that your family might be reunited. Hang in there. Let us be your lantern to help light your way out of the darkness.🤗