I'm trying; it's getting harder.
I feel like my mind body & soul is being pulled from many directions.

It's not a faith thing, but more of a question - why do many of us have to struggle, and never get that one' 'break' in this world.
Materialistic I know

This is something I've asked pretty much my whole life because I knew it wasn't right

The Creator wants us to live in Love & joy, free from pain & tears

So...it's the one opposing the Creator who instigates these things by trickery & deceit

I've recovered a lot of knowledge & info & have a better context for many things

But - it's still tough sledding

I'm more frustrated seeing what others have to go through most of the time because I do have that knowing

God bless & know that *you aren't alone*

It's all about lessons for your personal growth. Learn the lesson and you'll move on to the next lesson. If you don't learn the lesson you will experience the same trouble over and over until you do. God gives you what you need not what you want.