as a child, i had a huge problem with the God who needed sacrifices, who tested Abraham just to see if he would sacrifice his firstborn, then stopped him at the last minute. a God who had sacrificed his only son, partaking in the communion, that represents literally, to catholics, THE BODY and BLOOD, of Jesus (cannabalistic) i thought it very contradictory that the all loving and just God, could be jealous(to me that was a negative human quality). i dont down the beliefs of others but i have had many doubts, in my life about this God of the bible and the one that i felt in my heart. i dont think they were the same.

God who created heaven and earth and all the creatures that are here as well as Adam and Eve is the same God that is still with us today. Abraham was willing to sacrifice His dearly loved son. That's all God wanted for him to be willing to do. God provided the actual lamb as a sacrifice, the picture of the Lamb of God that takes away our sins. The sacrifices God ask for is the picture of the final sacrifice that Christ is for the sins of all. He came to save God's people. I've been a follower of Jesus Christ since I was young. I did take a detour in college but soon came back and because of God's Great Grace, I walk with Christ again. God's Word is only helpful when we read it and study it daily. He actually called me to write a daily devotional. There is not a day that I don't see Him at work in my life. When you are covered by the precious blood of Jesus Christ, there is no guilt. I confess my sins daily and know I've been forgiven. 1 John 1:9.
Praying for you dear sister.