This feeling of knowing things that most people don’t know, and wouldn’t believe if you told them, is really weird. Anonup is in a strange intermediate space of “declassified but still esoteric”.

Socially, its hard to know who knows what. It's like tip-toeing on ice. And even those who you know know - still not knowing how much they know. Grabbing on to every minute sign of comprehension...... it's exhausting. I feel like I've burnt out. But thats probably a good thing - a rest before ..... the next part.