I try to be of service to others, been doing that for many years, but i stumble on my abusive past, it takes very little to set me back, i try to live in peace but some sort if negativity is always seeking me out. I think i eat for comfort or stress relief.

Many do and it comes from love. Understand it like this. Wanting to feel comfortable "satisfied with yourself in life", is normal and we all deserve it. If food does it for you, it is how you found your way to getting back to feeling like you know you are SUPPOSED to be feeling when you are feeling bad. As I am sure you know, the food numbing fades, and the bad feelings are still there. You might get a world of change from this book It teaches how emotions are a guide to action, how to identify them, and what action to take to feel truly satisfied, so we don't have to go into distraction behaviors, few of which are ever good for us, and it keeps from going into the secondary feelings of frustration (when what we are doing never gets us to where we want to be) and worse depression when the mind forces everything to shut down to save itself from the overload stress of the frustration.) Every person should be raised learning this. It's easy to understand and apply.