I miss her love tremendously. Questions about my day. Interest. Excitement. Laughter. Syncs. While starting from the basics is needed, it’s hard because you wonder if that person doesn’t trust you anymore. If they don’t, You wonder if they will somehow turn around and start to love you again. I won’t worry. Just pray. I know the pain I felt just last week was much worse. Small steps matter. Above all God’s will matters so I pray I am doing his will every day. 🖤🤍

She’s talked to me some Par on Twitter. Everyday in a limited way. today was tough. She said a few things to me I have to take to heart. Things aren’t like they were. I am trying my best. She wants space and no commitment. So she can find herself. I told her she knows who she is and what she is capable of. She wants me to change for myself. I am and I do it for the people who matter to me. I want to heal together one small step at a time. I know she sees this. I see her small nods to me on her page but it’s quiet. We had some quality time and fun the other day. but she’s felt I’ve been acting like she’s my woman. that is what hurts. Currently I’m sitting in my room for the past few hours, not hungry all day. waiting for a response or to say goodnight.