She’s talked to me some Par on Twitter. Everyday in a limited way. today was tough. She said a few things to me I have to take to heart. Things aren’t like they were. I am trying my best. She wants space and no commitment. So she can find herself. I told her she knows who she is and what she is capable of. She wants me to change for myself. I am and I do it for the people who matter to me. I want to heal together one small step at a time. I know she sees this. I see her small nods to me on her page but it’s quiet. We had some quality time and fun the other day. but she’s felt I’ve been acting like she’s my woman. that is what hurts. Currently I’m sitting in my room for the past few hours, not hungry all day. waiting for a response or to say goodnight.

I pray she is doing OK too Par. Waiting for something to happen is not in my nature. I want to just ask away instead of giving “space”. I understand the need to heal. But I also wonder if I am doing something wrong. She is so beautiful and her absence from here makes me sad as well. Twitter is wonderful and full of friends but home is where the heart is. It’s like a dog that gets separated from its best friend.