Thank you! I love AU and everyone on it. It would be fantastic to throw a shindig when the movie's over so we could all meet each other and celebrate the rebirth of our nation. Like military soldiers, we digital soldiers have formed a special bond during our time in the trenches.
As for my current predicament, I realize that change is sometimes painful, always difficult, and many times necessary to get us where we need to be. But im a few months shy of 70 and not in any condition to survive being homeless and disabled in LA County. I barely survived it when I was young and healthy 25 years ago. At some point, living with constant pain wears away the will to survive. The added frustration of being limited by the loss of my right hand will almost certainly make suicide a no-brainer.
Unlike most, I have no family to consider. My brother and sister openly despise me and my two daughters haven't been in touch for over 20 years. My materialistic gf nags and belittles me constantly.