It is interesting to me how little we discuss the fact that we are being psychologically tortured (both the asleep and the awake). The MKUltra "up is down, black is white" fake narrative is designed to demoralise, humiliate, and break you via submission. Those who submit then want others to fail, legitimising their weakness, cowardice, and foolishness. Your closest social and familial bonds get weaponised against you.

This forces you to protect yourself, and withdraw into a circle of those who are truly loving and caring, with self-care at its centre. The urge can be to become a recluse, neglect yourself in the hope of a uncontroversial demise, or engage in suicidally dangerous activities to get off the planet quickly. I suspect that acknowledging that we are being tortured and witnessing it for each other is figural to managing the pain and healing the trauma.

It is the betrayal by those who put children in the way of harm (for selfish goals) that hurts most.

It is also hard to remain sane in a world so disconnected from reality that the absolutely horrific and unbelievable are perfectly acceptable, and what should be wholesome and acceptable is shunned with shame and revulsion.
I liken the sensation to reversed schizophrenia in that I can see that "the voices in their heads" of control everyone else clearly hears isn't real and I am the only one that isn't affected by it so I don't obey. Now they all think that I a crazy because I am NOT able to hear it as they do! Decades of enduring this make you crazy and often quite lonesome even if daily in a sea of others.
It is almost like a sad science fiction short story where all humans are gone except me, and there are now only billions of robots that are so like humans you almost can't tell them apart even a robot can't tell a human from the other robots. But I can plainly see I am the only human left on earth even though I am surrounded by others consistently, I am alone.