I can now see how my parents were spiritually abused, how I was, and now it’s happened to my children too. We endlessly seek answers in mind and body to the message we are not worthy, and try to gain control over what just has to flow. Degrees are drugs for the mind, drugs are degrees for the body, and the divinity reward we were after was inside of us all the time. Stopping the cycles takes patient work, and I am only just getting to grips with the problem. Everyone understands sexual or physical abuse. Spiritual abuse is normalised and even sold as desirable. We are such a collective mess, but this upheaval forces clarity and improvement.

Read and contemplate Psalms 23, 51, and 91. Read the book by Gregg Braden, The Divine Matrix. Know that we love you, Martin!

I haven’t read a book in years. Have frens to talk to who do read Bible. Am basically an illiterate who writes a lot.

You might enjoy the spoken version...
James Earl Jones does narration in one & there are sound efects,
like a "radio show" from b/f tv.
Just letting it swirl abound you, so that "deep calls unto deep" w/o activating the age-old conflicts wrt loyalty to a people group who instilled ANXIETY & GRIEF/felt a loss when an offspring expressed intellectual curiosity the community feared might undermine their cohesion
might be refreshing.