When @vincentkennedy said anons will have PTSD when all is said and done, that really hit home. The superficial image of psychological, biological, information, and spiritual warfare is "clean". But that's just the "silent weapon fallacy" — it's every bit as barbaric as any other kind of war, and the wounds are mostly invisible. I am not the person i was at the outset, mostly in good ways, but I am also brutalised and bruised. The isolation, pervasiveness, and depravity of it definitely wear you down.

I agree 100%.
My wife constantly asks me “what’s wrong?”.
I say “nothing is wrong” yet, my mind is racing 1000 mph in 100 different directions.
In my family (immediate & extended) I’m the black sheep.
I use to be very social.
Now, I’m more content being on my own.
I too am not the same person I was in the past but I believe it’s for the better.
Whatever I endure or suffer, it was meant to be.
There is shite I wish I never saw, heard or read.
Let these be my war wounds & I’ll wear them with pride and that knowing collectively, we made a difference in this war.
I am not alone.
We are not alone.
Love & respect to all anons.