The enemy wants you demoralised, broken, and bowed out. This is the spiritual war. To carry on, no matter how much you are hurting inside and want the pain to end. Don't give them the satisfaction of your submission... either through compliance or self-harm. Make them expend their authority and ammo.

I am a very imperfect human, as any look at my "white hat surveillance file" will attest. I have plenty of my own struggles to face without taking on the world. At no point have I sought public status or monetary rewards for my work — beyond the basics of living. Nobody is really "clean" — we all sin — but I definitely am not corrupt.

What I really want is to be able to help people who need to recover from the nightmare of omni-enslavement. It is a job only the recovering slaves can do for the awakening slaves. I only care about vindication and recognition as means to legitimise doing that job.

Feeling so sad right now. How much longer?

I promise to keep fighting.

It's all I

I think, we are all going to have a very nice Christmas.
You help a lot Martin, you've helped me.