absolutely - i hear and feel you. trauma fractures the mind - too much and it just needs to shut down until it is healed. why aren't we talking about this? why isn't there help for us? PTSD isn't anything to mess around with. i have it - my mate has it - our daughter has it now esp. after all she has lost the last 2 1/2 years. where is the help for her? i am f'ing done feeling like and being "collateral" damage for this plan. i am the same too as far as listening to vids or reading articles - most everything i see - esp. if it isn't new - annoys me immediately. it is time to SEE IT ALL so we can enter this "brave beautiful new world" we have all been promised to be a part of. the only and i mean THE ONLY logical answer that i am ok with in terms of why it is taking so long for this "movie" b.s. to end is because the rescuing of the children is still ongoing. the whole "we have to be careful in how we show the normies" is utter b.s. to me now.