I am noticing my mind is completely refusing to take on new "inventory" of info until there is some shifting of the old stuff. If new data doesn't contribute to reconciliation of divides with friends and family, or solve some immediately presenting real world problem, then there is zero energy for it. I just get annoyed ten seconds into any video, no matter how fascinating in principle the content is. Just don't care and don't want it.

There's only so many years you can be traumatised pretty nonstop and still function normally.

Primitive skills and woodworking vids have got me through some tough nights, but yeah. We want out of the pit but keep going deeper.