my friend and brother. I feel your pain. Iam so sorry about your family leaving. it may appear you are broken but I believe you are being made into a newer more wonderful version of yourself. Its hard being alone. I know this pain. I lost the three most beautiful children in 2020 due to this war over consciousness and havent been able to rebuild my life as I would wish. i cry daily thinking of them as now my ex has triple vaxxed them and who knows what the future holds. they were taken from her temporarily by CPS and I nearly lost my mind.
in any case I am here if you ever needed someone to talk to. Id be happy to be a listening ear. we are in this together and we will make it. and someday our family will love us for it