Same. Never thought I would feel this way. I just dont care about anything I used to... including friends, family, working out, job, money, responsibilities etc. I play games and read books to keep my mind occupied/distracted from the constant avalanche of horrible things happening in the world. I beat the chess master at the Renaissance festival the other weekend, was incredible. But I'm mostly hollow. Tough to find meaning when everything feels meaningless. It might be depression but that doesn't exactly define it... it's a deep empathetic sadness combined with a strong sense of betrayal and anger. Like a captured lion or something. I just want to leave the circus.