not meant to bring the vibe down, but to express how many of us may be feeling:

i have 0 drive. 0 interest in doing anything. normie stuff doesn’t interest me. i can’t even psych myself up to do the simplest things.

i’m not at all a lazy person, i work my ass off when i care. i love working with my hands and building. but there’s nothing right now that i’ve got a hand in that i can really dedicate my energy to, it’s all a facade.

i feel so useless and neutered, ‘waiting’…

Same here. I think alot of folks have been feeling that way recently, especially since the Covid lockdowns. It sorta forced people to reevaluate whats really important in life. But dont let anyone convince you there’s something wrong with you for feeling that way. I think its just the realization that most of the things we as modern humans have surrounded ourselves with are just empty distractions. And so alot of us are on a journey to find something that actually matters