From the time I was a little kid in sunday school, asking questions that didn't fit the party line & being shunned/shamed for questioning...I've always known the story is bigger than we can imagine. My husband has read the Bible 33 times, for each year he has been a "Christian" & each year we've been married. I've asked him these questions over the years. At first, he would be mad that I would even ask. Now, he says he isn't sure, but that God is all powerful, and even with satan doing his bidding, God would still have made sure that with what we see in the Bible, we can understand the gospel, and make a decision to follow Christ or not. He's good with that....he was also good with getting vaxxed 3 times.

My bigger question has always been, why the heck do I have to question everything, why must I be a darn conspiracy realist? Why do I persist, when I would really like to just be able to eat the steak(like Cypher in the Matrix). I am what I am, and I am so grateful for all of you!