There is so much staged drama going on… which at one level is exhausting and makes me want to withdraw to just focus on my own small world, but at another is the greatest story ever and I am nonstop drawn to fight.

Maybe it's the essential conundrum of unrestricted warfare against occultists: you are being gaslit so hard, and your loved ones weaponised against you, that the only refuge and respite is in the spiritual, not the physical.