I intuitively know that 'we have it all' means exactly that. Anons have to sit with the knowledge (inferred, evidenced, rational) that a flood of damning, incontrovertible, and indefensible information will be released at some point. Documents, confessions, videos — no shortage of proof to destroy the old paradigm.

The waiting, however, is torture. Literal psychological torture. All kinds of professional, personal, and family relationships degrade and break. Injustices are heaped upon us. Our world becomes a game of attrition and willingness to 'hold the line' in an epic test of faith.

I dread to think how many we have lost to alcoholism, overdoses, disease, suicide, and mental breakdown. I have had my own struggles offstage, and yet I am still here. Mass awakening is the end of our nightmare of 'trial by patience'. Nothing could ever be sweeter.

Oh my gosh, did I need this post tonight. I spent time talking with my only awake cousin who wants me to go to an Aunt's memorial service. I come from a huge family and I find myself alienating myself more and more because I just can't relate to any of them. I can't be surrounded by all of my jabbed family members and not be drowning in emotional pain. I can't sit and do small talk about nonsense when all of this insanity is going on. I feel like I don't fit in anywhere except here. I finally told my jabbed family members that I was really sick in Dec./Jan. I didn't want to hear "I told you you should have gotten jabbed" comments. I wanted them to see that I survived and pray they won't get boosters. I keep seeing the words "Family Is Everything" which is something I already knew yet I feel like I have lost mine in this battle. Martin, I pray it is over soon. I really need for them all to see that I am not crazy and understand why I am pulling away. It is just too painful.

Family doesn't always mean the tribe you were born in. I've always been the outcast in my family, which most are gone now. I like to think that i can now choose to pick the people I call family, ppl who i can relate to, have my same vibe. So here on AU were are family. I believe "things happen for a reason", it's why we are all here. One big family!!