Joey, its always darkest before the light. You are never alone. Look to God. Have faith that there was a reason that this has all happened. I am sure you don't see it now, but it will come to light. Plus, you have all us patriots to help you when you have sad thoughts. Take this time to get to you know yourself. I too had many sad times this passed 2 years. Lost my husband and don't know what each new day will bring. I have to look forward to that light at the end of the tunnel. I feel its coming soon my friend. Bless you!