We are here for you! I notice many veterans including myself who are extending our support, love and understanding of your pain. You are lucky to have such a sweet grandson who wants to play army men... too cute! I am so glad to see that you are communicating your fears and sadness, please continue the updates as this is part of the healing process! Never forget, the LORD loves you and can be the constant positive day and night. Along with the Lord, we will never stop supporting and loving our fellow veteran and friend!