more recently ive been telling too many people about my problems. and its manifested further into distance between what I want and what I have. what i love is what I love. regardless of the past. i can create the future I set my unwavering belief on.

worrying now will do me no good. crying more now will do me no good either. I know what i want, but i didnt set the intention or have the tools to do it before. i wish i did. you can’t look at the world and say Ah, I dont see evidence of my desired outcome. i should give. no, if you really want it, your have to silently and consistently believe, set aside doubt, visualize, and manifest.

i chased my love away by getting lost in my pains and manifesting more pain. it was a loosh cycle. i ended up creating the breakup with my thoughts and lack of intention to create another life. and further down the road i created the cutoff with more worry and lack of manifesting reconnection and reunion.

there is no need to figure the how, all you need to see and manifest is the end that you want.

this is the place I found love. it came effortlessly after months of believing it would come true. what happened after was I didnt manifest further. I could have felt a future of coming together, dates, abundance, getting out of my parents house. i got stuck in numbers and decodes instead of the things that mattered. if i did it once, i can do it again 🖤🤍