I won't do that.
What'll I'll say is, I didn't know my ass from my elbow the whole time, because my intellect has limits.
I'll say I doubted greatly for significant periods of time, because who wouldn't?
It's only logical, after all. We've been lied to for decades on the big and the small stuff, and the life-altering stuff, so it makes perfect sense to be skittish. I am not ashamed to question, nor will I be if my doubts turn out wrong.
What I would be, is ecstatic that The Plan was true, and somebody that knew something did something and I get my freedom, and have an opportunity to work at maintaining it. I hope it's true. I just don't want to be caught unawares if it isn't.
My personal philosophy is that I'd rather prepare my heart for it to be broken, than to think I have something going when I don't.