My life has been filled with watching kids since I was three. After mom was killed in a drunk driving crash I was watching and keeping an eye on my sister, (2) I grew up, at 17 I had my first child. At 18 my second. At 28 & 29 my 3rd and 4th. I have fostered two boys when thier mother abandoned them and one was a drug baby, then when our 3rd daughter was in school her friends mom moved away and she needed a place to stay I allowed her to stay at our home till she graduated. I have been babysitting my grandkids (9 of them) off and on since 2005 and today jen or 3rd child said she is putting her in a day care for two days. Well at first I was taken aback how could you turn the rearing of your child over to a stranger, but later that reality hit me clean in between my heart. It’s time for me to deal with my past and quit being a consummate mother. I (my husband will say him also but he was working all day) raised our kids out of mutual agreement we didn’t want a stranger raising our k

Kids so I stayed home and raised three beautiful social common sense driven humans to the best of my abilities, they have a faith raised, three square meals, clean clothes, love and hugs when they needed it joy happiness discipline filled life and now I need to trust what I did with them. I worked at thier schools so they always knew where I was, never really detached to the two younger ones. I was always around. The past yr and a half our youngest has been living with us (since Covid) and I am ready to be an empty nester. It’s time for me to deal with the trauma I have neglected to deal with and trust what I did as a mom and Ama(gma) this is one of the hardest things I have ever done is let go of control. When I in actuality do not have control anymore they do as parents. Our son (3rd) is getting ready to by a house a cheap fixer upper and move out, our daughter Jen is releasing me of my babysitting duties so I can help our oldest who had the cancer and blood clots 👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼👇🏼