A good reminder - shoulder to shoulder...

I still have to remind myself what he told me, because lately I feel like I’m slipping away or failing miserably.

awww, you know that isn't true, but feelings are feelings.
what's causing you to feel that way?

Signs from the universe, maybe being incorrectly filtered through my fuzzy perception, stymied by a feeling of lost connection. I don’t know but I feel better after saying it & having a good cry. I’ll always keep trying, I will not quit or run away.

well, if it makes you feel any better, we all go through it. I think it's normal. try to not be so hard on yourself or overthink it. Do something that makes you happy and get grounded. Everyone will still be here, but I know you know that. You KNOW you're meant to be here, but it's like anything else in life - ups and downs come along with the territory as they say.

Sometimes getting in a different head space takes a bit of work as you know. When was the last time you played your harp outside with your beautiful view? :)

It does make me feel better. I really want to be here and want to do a good job, I don’t want to fail with God or you or anyone.

That’s a great idea, I haven’t played my harp in probably a year.

Work has been sucking my life away too - I’m often working from 8am-10pm for the past year on this project going live next month. I’ve put my all into it, but it means I can’t be here as much, and I struggle with that too. I’m losing connections with people which was a huge source of joy all along & feeling the pain of that loss. I also miss my brother, we were recently told we are twin souls, he is fighting cancer rd2. I’m suppressing a lot of feelings there to be strong.

I’m so sorry for being a sad sack all over your beautiful post! I will take your advice!
God bless you for your freely given counseling, I love you Kim! ❤️

You're not a sad sack at all. Again, feelings are feelings. Gotta work through them.

The work thing is hard. I've definitely been there, and when you can't be here, it is a mental game. Just know that things here are rolling and being here when you can is enough. Hopefully, work will lighten up for you when once it goes live. Ebbs and flows - you got this!

As far as your brother goes, sending good vibes and healing thoughts to him. Again, probably hard to watch someone you love go through that. Hope he comes out on the other side of this as stronger person. It's so great he has a loving, supportive family like yours though.

Hugs to you LHA. Always here for you. Try to take some 'me' time this seeking for yourself to do something you love. Hang in there!