Signs from the universe, maybe being incorrectly filtered through my fuzzy perception, stymied by a feeling of lost connection. I don’t know but I feel better after saying it & having a good cry. I’ll always keep trying, I will not quit or run away.

well, if it makes you feel any better, we all go through it. I think it's normal. try to not be so hard on yourself or overthink it. Do something that makes you happy and get grounded. Everyone will still be here, but I know you know that. You KNOW you're meant to be here, but it's like anything else in life - ups and downs come along with the territory as they say.

Sometimes getting in a different head space takes a bit of work as you know. When was the last time you played your harp outside with your beautiful view? :)