It is interesting to me how little we discuss the fact that we are being psychologically tortured (both the asleep and the awake). The MKUltra "up is down, black is white" fake narrative is designed to demoralise, humiliate, and break you via submission. Those who submit then want others to fail, legitimising their weakness, cowardice, and foolishness. Your closest social and familial bonds get weaponised against you.

This forces you to protect yourself, and withdraw into a circle of those who are truly loving and caring, with self-care at its centre. The urge can be to become a recluse, neglect yourself in the hope of a uncontroversial demise, or engage in suicidally dangerous activities to get off the planet quickly. I suspect that acknowledging that we are being tortured and witnessing it for each other is figural to managing the pain and healing the trauma.

It is the betrayal by those who put children in the way of harm (for selfish goals) that hurts most.

Martin last night was the worst I have even been through. My wife and I both. Your message here is like having you sat down with us and discussed this almost word for word. I used the word tortured she said tormented. What the hell do we do about it? This morning we are wiped out. The feeling are so overwhelmed Normally it is not like this. We have faith and strength. Both between us and in our small group. But something changed last night. And we do not like it. To much external input and disruption going on.
Damn.