This is my first holiday without my kids or anyone, left here alone and I just layed on the couch crying. My heart is broken because NO family wants to be around because they all think I am crazy believing and Trusting Q…. I am a patriot that lost everything, and now having to split holidays because I lost my marriage 3 years ago. This is a pain that doesnt go away. I pray and I pray and the pain is still there. God please bring the Soulmate you have chosen for me I need you always Lord 🙏🏻

This brought back memories of when my kids were small and my ex came and took them because it was his turn to have them for Christmas..... I think I cried all day, Christmas without the kids wasn’t Christmas at all. 😕 This time of year is actually hard on many people.

And I am tearing up as I read this, I am so glad that you had your mom who clearly helped you be the person you are today, that is so very special. I wish my mom felt that way, i feel like I was born into the wrong family, sometimes i think i must have gotten switched at the hospital.... I am really not like anyone in my family.

It is so very important to tell our stories to show we are the same and on the same path in the Lord’s hands. My story is similar and I have had anger and pain over it but this time at Christmas I saw the pain my sister is living and my mother’s pain was clear too. I was a calm center in that room and saw they responded without hatreds. It was humbling. I will no longer push truth at them but will be a calm spot where they can rest. Joey and Jason you are wonderful souls and strong men. Thank you for caring so much.