I never talk about this. Mostly due to shame and disappointment in myself but I almost transitioned myself several years ago. I currently look like a rig pig/lumberjack so none ever suspect. But we all have masculine and feminine energies. But in my case I always had more feminine energy than my peers in a world that told me everyday that my masculinity was toxic and horrific and unnecessary. But that was the time Jordan Peterson taught me that my divine masculinity was not only non toxic but entirely necessary. I won't write a novel here but suffice it to say, I put my feminine, my anima where she belongs. My femininity is an asset that has made me more compassionate than I would be without her but she needed to learn that she is but one facet of the diamond that I am. And she is NOT the part that shines the brightest. But I post this to say that my heart truly goes out to those who've been there too because many made it much farther than I did with the greatest mistake we could make