the same thing happened with my father in law when he was hospitalized with covid. i told my wife and him that whatever he does tell them you dont want remdesivir when they ask. i begged and begged for him not to authorize that. again this was about a year ago. he told them he didnt want to take remdesivir. they asked him, well why not? He said ive been hearing bad side effects from it and organ failure. They never gave it to him, and his chances of survival they said were slim. He got out of the hospital a couple weeks later with great progression, slowly weening off oxygen, and has been back to work since. i pray for you and keep spreading the truth, someone is always listening to you.