I feel you on this. my father would still be alive today if it wasnt for “his family”. I am adopted. My father was a stubborn man and he made his choices. i am not going to kill myself over the choices my father made. It has been a long process and the pain was intense at times. However, God has a purpose for us and eventually you will see this.

i do not know the details of your wife’s journey, but you have to remember it was her journey. We may not understand it, but we do have to respect it. trust me i do not like it either. Had “my family” stayed away, my father would gave recovered years ago but he chose to allow the family drama. i refused to allow it in the end. i know i was keeping him alive, but not without causing stress on me.

I need to come to terms with all this and ultimately my father made his choices and i will not allow his bad choices to continue affecting me. I believe God will take care of those who caused him harm. love and forgiveness is the wa

it will take time to deal with all your pain. in time you will find a way to honor your wife. Perhaps start a fundraiser in her name.

Right now just taking it day by day is all you can do. sometimes you will need to take a break. Every person deals with things differently. i still talk to my father like he is here. some days i do not. i have a lot of emotions to work through mainly from my demented family. As i work through this, all the negative will eventually wash away.

YOU DO YOU. DO NOT LET OTHERS TELL YOU HOW TO PROCESS YOUR GREAT LOSS. DO TRY TO REMEMBER ALL THE GOOD THINGS SHE BROUGHT INTO YOUR LIFE. ALLOW YOURSELF TO GREIVE. EVENTUALLY YOU WILL WORK THROUGH THE PAIN I PROMISE!

Do what you know to be true. if you know there was negligence then pursue it if you feel that is where God is guiding you. We are living in the darkest times in history. Only God can heal us on all levels. In time you will see. You will be with her again one day. in the me