Folks I would like to ask what your opinion of being awake is.

For me it is the ability to think for myself. While I have things I wish were true I am able to put that on a shelf and find things that are true. I think it is the will to put my wishes to the side and except what can be proven over what I personally wish to be true. It is a painful thing to do at times because there are some truths I just do not want to face, I think that is true of all of us but I know that until I can stand against what we face with truly open eyes I will always wonder if I fell asleep again and didn't even notice. There is one thing that I do not need proof for and never will need proof for and that is my God. He is a feeling more than truth. He is much more to me than what anything in this world can offer. He is my strength and direction. Share with me if you will what you believe it is to be awake. All replies welcome with no judgement.

For me, being awake, is being aware of where my investment is. Small talk irritates me to no end, because there real no end to it. No purpose. Compliments annoy me. If it’s my clothes? I dress for myself. If it’s my looks? I largely can’t do anything about it. Being awake, means being aware that my investment is in the Kingdom not of this world. Knowing that so many people are focused on subverting the choices of others, I spend my time speaking freedom from the shackles comprised of other people’s ideals. I keep up with you mu fren, to add to the toolbox of how I can better speak to others. All are necessary.

That is a brutally honest but very smart way of looking at life. I think it does us well when we are hard but not to hard on ourselves because especially in today's word it is so easy to slip.
I thank you for those kind words they mean the world.
It is because of you all that I do what I can. I wish I could give you so much more but there are not enough hours in a day. I have about 9 hours left and I must leave you for an unknown amount of time. I have delayed longer than I should but you are all more than worth it.