me too. i have had to protect my heart by hardening up and detaching. too much waiting - too long holding a desire - can be damaging to ones heart/soul/energy. and this ongoing use of the word "soon" - for years - has just worn me out for now. i am surrounded by bots and programmed humans who love blm, biden and getting the jab. so i hide in my house now (until Life opens up the door i've been pounding on to find another place to live with like-minded humans with souls).