Joey, hun you are never alone, never. Besides all the ppl on here that care about you, God is with you ALL the time. All you have to do is call his name out loud.
Tell me, what do you usually like to do at night? Do you have hobbies? Do you watch TV? What do you like? I have found with others that have PTSD that concentrating on physically doing things takes your mind off your problems.
You can never depend on some other person to make you happy inside hun, that is up to you and God and he gave you a wonderful life here to enjoy for a long time more.
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