Many of my struggles within led me back to childhood times, a time where things took place, things I had no clue were causing my life to spin in circles, a loop, same things coming around about every 5 years. I also realized that I began holding to my line with others more so than I had ever done before, and it caused some problems for others, but in my post-addiction state I saw them as liberating for Me. I noticed that in a very short period of time I kind of fast forwarded my life through some quick experiences, when compared to My Dad, its like I went through the same transition in Jobs, Volunteer Positions, Marriage troubles, Drinking, raising a Son as My own who was not my blood son, He is MY Boy, but in about a yr a checked all the boxes My Dad did in 15 yrs, and culminated in him becoming a preacher. Well I have come to realize I am doing the same thing Here. Once I faced my issues, I become free, felt the holy spirit within, and was gifted proof of God. You may be as I am.