Does anyone else have days where they just don’t want to be here anymore?

I am an unwell caregiver of unwell animals & unwell mom, am married to an unwell, obese alcoholic & every single relationship I have, the other parties are in varying degrees of Matrix comfortability.

My having awakened has changed my life 💯from the frying pan of the last 50 years into the fire of the last 6.

Having survived abuse, I recognize the symptoms that come with surviving…apathy, utter fatigue, your whole inner self becoming cryogenically preserved in the hopes the sun will come back out again…

I say all this, knowing the good things coming WITHOUT DOUBT. I am so drained, I cannot maintain my energy anymore. There has been more going out than has been coming in for far too long.

I apologize for lamenting my circumstances. I know so many other people have had far worse struggles these last years.
Thought about taking this down, but decided someone else may realize they are not alone. Many of us are walking on water, standing on Faith that God is going to flip the tables & turn the Matrix on its head.

We are waiting (some days not as patiently) on the Lord.

His ways & understanding are higher than ours. Thank God.