Does anyone else have days where they just don’t want to be here anymore?

I am an unwell caregiver of unwell animals & unwell mom, am married to an unwell, obese alcoholic & every single relationship I have, the other parties are in varying degrees of Matrix comfortability.

My having awakened has changed my life 💯from the frying pan of the last 50 years into the fire of the last 6.

Having survived abuse, I recognize the symptoms that come with surviving…apathy, utter fatigue, your whole inner self becoming cryogenically preserved in the hopes the sun will come back out again…

I say all this, knowing the good things coming WITHOUT DOUBT. I am so drained, I cannot maintain my energy anymore. There has been more going out than has been coming in for far too long.