I am so. tired.
My brain aches.
I have been pushing myself to increase my income so I can take my daughter and get out of this toxic home environment.
Just the cost of housing would take my income (I am in Oregon).
Living with someone who is a full-on narcissist, who has mental health issues and refuses to own any of it has taken a toll.
Over 20 years of being beaten down, criticized, not seen have left me a wreck.
I'm so grateful I finally let myself see and begin the process of rebuilding myself - but that is a slow process I am learning for the nervous system - the body - holds that trauma.
Plus I don't have a support system around me because, well, I'm a truther, a Trump supporter surrounded by people who have TDS.
So I am quite isolated. That and social anxiety and panic all caused by prolonged abuse have made it difficult for me TO trust.
I don't know what I'm asking for.
Love. Support. To be seen. To be helped. To feel SAFE again.