i really dont remember when it was a good life but i do know i was in a protected life. i never felt not safe ever even in the city where i worked my first job. i was engaged at the time and life was good then but i always knew something was missing. kids? we had three but still there was something missing around 30 i realised, from there going forward i always had that feeling.. jfk assassination didnt make sense. things sometimes didnt make sense, i didnt see things like everyone else. i was different. why? i had no clue. at 71 years old i knew. there it was.. starseed, etc, that was me from childhood to present. it freed me i am blessed the rest of my life and i hope i get to see it all and live it.. and i also know i am not alone... you all said the same things.. chosen. not special. just chosen. and we all are ONE.