part two.. the world has literally opened up like i have been waiting for this my whole life.. i am not kidding you. i love this site of anons. i AM one of them.. i am not alone. what i saw as a child and adult that no one else saw was true... i am hoping you can see that just maybe your true passion hasnt been found yet. do not give up.. take things easily and evaluate it for yourself.. just you. keep it to yourself. i know your frustration.. btw. i am almost 78 years old and more alive today than the past 69 years cause i found my purpose in life.. at 70 years old thanks to DJT. i hope it helps.. something will click.. or just maybe it wont. but do not dismay.. it will hit you when you least expect it... blessings of love and light dear child..