KJ, thank you for your service. I think forgiving yourself is always the hardest task. We can forgive others but somehow, when it comes down to forgiving ourselves it’s tougher. I can only imagine what you went through, while serving your country. I can only imagine how tough it must have been and I have so much respect! Please know you are not alone Patriot. You have family here, whether you know each personally or not. God Bless you with love and all the forgiveness you might need. ❤️🙏