I understand exactly what you are saying. I carry a smile on my face....but there really hasn't been anything easy in my life. Every aspect of my life I have struggled. Some days I asked when....when will things ever get better?? My whole life of keeping on...keeping on. Somewhere deep inside my heart...I have this hope...hope for better days and a better future. It's time to reach down deep in your heart and find that hope. We will get through this together. *hugs*