I haven't posted anything on AU for months. Anyone else feeling depressed and despondent? I'm interested in the point a person reaches when they lose hope and it no longer seems worth it to go on living. im at that point now and have the means to be out of here in about an hour.
What spiritual consequences are there for people who take their lives? That's really all that's holding me back.

We love you. I love you. Talk to us. I know how you feel. Every day seems to drag by. I find peace outside barefoot in grass watering the garden. Watching movies. Focus on God. Use this time to talk to him and listen for his voice. You're not alone fren. Talk to me. 🙏🤗💗

If you really wouldn't mind ill take you up on that. One of the biggest problems I have is incredible loneliness. No family or friends, a girlfriend who's not compatible and after 10 years i can count on my hands how many times she's said she loved me. And my only meaningful relationship I have is with her dog, Lulu.
That's just the beginning of a long list, so i won't go further filling the page with my problems.
It's really beautiful of you to respond as you did. i honestly expected to be ignored. Thank you.

Picture it like this: we are in God's military bootcamp right now. Being pushed and tested to be built into LEGENDS. Just pass the tests. Push as hard as U can. Keep learning new things every single day. You are chosen and set aside to hone in on your connection with the Almighty. You are NOT forgotten by your creator. When the teacher is quiet it means he's testing the student basically. Eat some food you love and listen to music nonstop and get into your bible. It will keep you going I promise. I've been dealing with this solitude for years now. It's become an art I've learned to master. 🙏🌈🤝