I feel a bit paralysed by the possibility of serious crazy sh*t starting at any moment. Makes it hard to plan anything, travel in confidence, engage with the ordinary. Is wrong to live in fear, but anxiety is natural given the horror we have already lived through. It may be infinitely better than the worst timelines, but it’s still sickening.

So far I’m good. Have to travel for my brothers funeral on the worst weekend to travel here. Add to that I’m going to travel on some of the largest targets in the areas to and from.
Is it too much to ask for them to wait until we get home and my family arrives for vacation? 🫤