Well it was harder to imagine than it was to believe....cuz we have Love and empathy in our hearts. THATS why we think EVEN THEY must have a conscience. But they don't. I did as much confirmation as a i could till I was seeing too much...which causes hope to dim. It's harder to ACCEPT Truth to be True, than it is to see it. And its fucking hard to look at. For me it was easy to believe and accept...what was hard was realizing the scope of it all. That causes hope to dim too. When my Faith in God grew thru tearful prayers and a True desire to reach the time after THIS time...has driven me thru my tribulations with life and death. I want soo bad to be there with my son when he finally knows True Freedom and Hope for a good life and future for HIS family...which has yet to be created....that I have survived near death twice, thanks to my God. This is the extent of my understanding at present.
It's been a long time since I needed confirmation of anything...cuz now, it just all makes sense